Despite good things happening at the moment I still feel oddly melancholy and down.
I feel like I’m swimming against the tide and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m helpless, without power or control and it’s scary. I can’t even drive home any more without shouting at another driver and I struggle to concentrate on things.
I worry about money often but it’s not only that this time.
I don’t think I need to relax or something because I’m not really doing anything. Perhaps I’m getting fed up of doing nothing and need to do something but I don’t really want to do anything. Just sit and watch TV.
I can’t get excited about anything any more. I look forward only to things being not as frustrating as they were.
Is anybody looking out for me? Does anyone actually care?

I just heard this and it sounds pretty much how I feel. Although I don’t really miss anyone.
Missing on the Motorway (Shadow vs Everything But The Girl) by Tiger Mendoza
To re-iterate I have a loving wife and I know that, I love her too.

Update:
I’m feeling better today. Better to have talked about it and I will do something about it when I have the time (more about why I have little time soon).